This is getting real!

So I just took the first step in taking this process from "something we're going to do" to something we are doing... like soon.

The first prescription is dropped off: birth control.

Yep. You read that right. For those of you unfamiliar with the invitro process (of course every clinic and case is different), the first step is a few days/weeks of birth control.

The reason is that they want to "reboot" your ovaries before getting into the drugs that stimulate them to make a whole bunch of eggs.

Even though I know why I'll be taking it, I can't really get over the irony that my first experience with birth control will be to get pregnant.

At this point I would stand on my head for 5 days if the doc told me to. 

Oh and we may be moving this whole thing up a month instead of waiting until May. Even though it's nice to have a clear, un-hormonal head back on my shoulders, I'm just kind of ready to get the show on the road.

I have to be honest though- I'm not really looking forward to the whole pregnancy part. Part of me hopes I'll enjoy it but as many complaints as I hear from pregnant women, I'm not naive to think the hard part is going to be over once the test is finally positive.

But just like planning a wedding is just a means to the marriage, this whole process is a means to have our family with us. I'm so ready to sit down and plan out Disney World trips and preschool and all the museums and parks I want to show my kids and places we want to take them.

I can't take a road trip any more without flashbacks of what my childhood road trips were like and yearning for the screaming, cranky kids in the back. You know, the ones with my eyes and his hair.

I'm not even a mom yet but I already feel like I'd do anything for my (hopefully) future kids.

I mean nothing says love like being willing to take shots in the butt for someone. Am I right? ;)